Trying on some old clothes when I was digging out my summer things from the guest bedroom… they FIT!!! Aaaah literally so happy! Firstly, these shorts fell off me last autumn. They were so big that I was convinced no amount of weight gain would mean they fit me again! They were even a little too baggy for Mississippi Easter 2012, when I weighed (tw) like 5kg more than I do now?! Most of the weight gain is gong to my middle, but I’ve read that’s perfectly normal - hopefully it will go to my boobs and bum soon! (Says the girl who used to cry over her ‘huge’ bum… but it’s coming back I think, it has shape! Even if the other week I freaked out over how untoned and ‘huge’ it was again…) these shorts are a size 10! The size I vowed nearly two years ago I would never be again. I was an 8 at a healthy weight, my body can be a healthy size 8 because I’m so short. But I honestly really don’t care about sizes now… I care about things fitting!
These jeans are an 8, but again were ridiculously baggy on me a few months ago. I think it’s because they were kind of shaped to me when I was a higher weight, so the fabric was so loose in places… not anymore! It was honestly like Cinderella putting on her glass slipper :)
And the skirt…? The skirt I actually cut an extra slit into for the top button, when I was again at a HEALTHY weight (like 5kg higher than now) because it was too baggy?? It fit! :P And I don’t feel fat at all, I don’t miss my old unhealthy shape. I feel so happy that clothes are fitting. I am loving my body for what it is giving me right now - a sense of reality, the concentration to revise that I genuinly believed a couple of months ago would never come back. Seriously, all this stuff about increasing to 2000+… believe the hype! I feel so happy, I feel so free. Anons, throw at me your worst about how I ‘don’t need to gain’ and am ‘too big’… I don’t give a shit! I don’t even know exactly what I weigh now as i haven’t been weighed in like two weeks. But regardless, I doubt I am fully weigh restored (bmi 20+) and even if I somehow miraculously was, I still want more curves! ANd I want my period back, I want my hair to stop falling out - it still does a little. I want my smile even bigger and my eyes even brighter… Oh, and I want foody food because it is life’s best medicine! Oh now what to wear for tonight, the choices?! :P